More or Less.

I'm 20 years, married and have a child on the way. I guess you can say it's the standard military life, marry young, have babies young ect, I could care less what "catorgory" you put me in. I don't have regret with the life I choose. My husband, Matthew has been in the Army for a year, this June. It's been quite the experience, let me tell you. No, I haven't been through a deployment, I won't experience it for a few more months, mentally, I'm prearing myself for it, but physically & emotionally, I will never be ready for it. And I just got to put my big girl panties on and go on with it, the best I can when it does come around, espically for my son Rhyan and for Matt.

I guess this blog is just let me vent or blog when then the time comes around cause I am the one to not talk about my feelings, or at least to face to face. Matt knows this quite well, he's actually adpt to it quite well, except when I shut down, but he knows I'll come around. I'll most likely put this one facebook, haven't decided yet. I guess you'll know when I get feedback from family/friends. However, If I do decide to put this on facebook or whatever, family and family-in-laws, friends, do NOT call or text me to talk about my blog. I actually find it to be quite annoying, I don't mean to be rude or anything, but this is my place of vent. If you want to talk to me about my blog either message me here on this webpage or private message me, because honestly I proabaly won't say much or anything at all. I rather not talk about my feelings as I said before, but everyone needs to vent, and if I really need someone to talk to I reply, but I am rather picky who I talk to.

I'm pretty sure that segment was unnessary, but I wrote it anyways....

My life had it's up & downs, but i make it my own. I've been through a lot, proabaly not as much as others, but I can say I've seen plently to know that the world isn't kind, but you can color it to be kind if you will. I have an open mind & open heart, but at somepoint in life, I had shut down my heart from being hurt way too much, but that's okay now. As of now my life is pretty I guess you can say is boring, but I enjoy most of the time.

I am a stay at home wife/mom, at the time I do enjoy being home, but that's only cause this pregnancy is kicking my ass, and if I were to keep my job at the PX, as a cashier, I'm pretty sure I would have gone off on a rude customer by now. I'll admit I'm not the greatest stay at home wife, I don't clean every day, nor do I cook my husband dinner every night, which some people seem to say "oh it's job to clean, cook, take of care of the kids ect." Uhm, Yes & No, this is only temporary situation, and my husband is okay with it, cause if anyone he knows I rather be working then cleaning, and I do cook for him when he wants his favorite or when he has buddies over. And I do clean, but not everyday, why keep recleaning whats already clean?


this is blog is more or less about little more into my life or how I manage things. If you haven't noticed, I'm the greatest speller, but I don't care, I've always been like that.

eh.